Saturday, August 21, 2010

Chew update, dammit.

It's been a couple of days now and I'm still tobacco free.
For the first time in my adult life I do not have a can of Copenhagen within reach, or even in my home for that matter.
It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be although it's not over yet. At this point I'm still trying to quit. I will be sucessful when I no longer think about it more than 3 times a minute.
I've managed to keep a pretty good humor, haven't been short-tempered much, and I'm not real anxious any more. The dog has come out of hiding although I think the Evil Cats have left the county.
As a matter of fact, the only real problems I'm having is a huge appetite and my hands are shaking like a motherfucker, shaking so bad that I passed a shot on a coyote at 75 yards STANDING broadside to me this morning. I could not keep my crosshairs on his chest and wasn't sure I could get a clean kill.
My appetite? Fuck, let's just say I blew my diet to hell. Let's see, today I've eaten 8 eggs (4 fried, 4 boiled), a pound of bacon, a big ol' chunk of breakfast ham, some drop biscuits with cream gravy for breakfast, some refries, rice, carne asada, 6 homemade flour tortillas, 3 avacados and a 16 ounce tub of cottage cheese for lunch, and got a large pizza on the barbecue for dinner. And I've eaten better than a pound of fresh jalapenos throughout my wanderings. Plus I've knocked back an 18 pack of Busch and have another 12 pack in the icebox.
In all fairness, I've been up since 3 AM so I could go look at coyotes (lucky motherfuckers) but still, that's a lot of motherfucking groceries there.
And did I mention that suddenly I've got a huge craving for chocolate? I don't eat chocolate or sugar. I haven't bought sugar in years and I honestly cannot remember the last time I ate chocolate but right now I'd kill for a Mars bar.


Bella said...

Zero to 350... ain't a Ford. Hang in there, it's tough. You'll do it.

PatAZ said...

Sounds like things are going just fine.

wirecutter said...

Yeah, I'm dealing with it. I never have one to count days or hours - it's a defeatist attitude - but the one thing that keeps me going is that if I fall back, I'll just have to go through the same bullshit again....
Thanks, Pat and Bella. Your words and support kick ass.

Amusing Bunni said...

I'm glad you're hanging in there WC.
I've found the best thing when you're trying to quit something is not to even have it in the you're on the right track!
Just put it out of your mind, and think about your end goal!
Have a fun day and give Charlie a treat from me.

Bella said...

I'm betting right now that you either want to fuck, fight, or hold the light? Just maybe... Hang in there!

sonnyjdean said...

Good luck there cutter, But I have some sad news for ya I don't beleive they actually make "mars" anymore

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you are preggers. But keep it up and you will be better for it.

~Long time reader, first time posting~


xenophile said...

yep - its a pain. i hot 4 months 7 days 22 1/2 hrs hagen/tobacco free. still counting - not wanting though.


Lula said...

Good job man. And eat the candy. Just don't drink the Kool Aid!