All my life I've tried to conform to other folks' standards, I've tried to please those around me, I've tried to be somewhat respectable.
I've failed miserably. Seriously, I have.
I can't tell you the shit that I've failed at and I can't tell you the folks that take every motherfucking opportunity to tell me so, not that I give a good goddamn, you motherfuckers.
I've failed at the only marriage I attempted, more relationships that I care to remember, and more hunting seasons that I can count.
But you know what?
FUUUUUUCK YOU. Seriously.
I've realized that I could personally give a flying fuck less what anybody thinks about me.
I could lose my job tomorrow and I'll survive. It'll be hard but I'll make it.
Lose my house? No biggie.
Friends? Those that are true will hang no matter what. If they don't, fuck 'em. The only friend I had that I could seriously trust with my life fucked me when I really needed him. I'll never depend on him again.
Seriously. I'm my own man. I'll live the best I can, I'll do what I have to, and I answer to no motherfucker.
Survival, you know?
Brother, been there myself, and sorry to bust a bubble, and hate it that your true friend was NOT a friend, but without my friends this life would be a suck-ass place to be, my friends make it tollerable. I read your blog daily, and I gots to tell ya,, what ya said and what ya feel now is NOT who ya are.
ReplyDeleteBrian
USAF RET
Disabled American Veteran, and I hope a friend.
Brian, it's folks like you that make my blog worthwhile.
ReplyDeleteGoddamn, a diasabled vet..... yeah, you're a friend, I salute you with my heart and I wish you only the very best.
Ken, my "estranged" wife once said that I was the only person she knew that could tomorrow never say another word to another human for the rest of my life and be perfectly happy. She also said that the husband she knew was not the husband who came home from Iraq. (not my first rodeo)I have always viewed most people with a jaundiced eye and I definitely feel that most people are just stumbling through life. Not the trusting type you might say, as most people are also a bit selfish as well. I call em like I see em and most people can't handle the truth. (especially about themselves)
ReplyDeleteHere are my 5 rules;
1. I will not loan you my tools or equipment that you are to cheap to buy yourself.
2. I will not help you(do for you)something that you are too incompetent(lazy) to do for yourself.
3. I will not waste my time giving advice to you when you can't figure it out(stupid).
4. I am not interested in your personal life and drama(trainwreck).
5. My opinion is factual, yours; irrelevant.
Derek, I fucking love you, man.
ReplyDeleteGoddamn, I swear we're long lost twins.....
Hey then Brudda, google M1938 Wirecutters, WWII issue. I happen to have a pair I would be willin to part with to a WIRECUTTER...
ReplyDeleteShit, Derek. Give me a price and I'll buy them from you.
ReplyDeleteThey'll be a prize for sure, somehting I'd be proud to have.
naah fukstick, yo money no good here. 'sides you just give me some Kalifornia IOU scrip...email me with address at yahoo and the deal is done. Now, now..go get the cryin' towel!
ReplyDeletei still love you, you big ol' pain in the ass xxxxxx
ReplyDeletei refused to stop working after doctors told me to stop, worked 7 more years all i lost out of it was friends. The wife had brain anuerysm in '08 and disabled, badly, only ONE of her friends has visited her in 2 years and she flew from Modesto just to see her. I say the rest can go to HELL. Lost house, new truck, gold, silver, and bank account. So there will be no new friends in the future i am sure. But at least i have good reading on your blogsite and alot of your links. what else could a loner S. O. B. like me want? Semper Fi Do Or Die
ReplyDeleteDon't have a CGD but I do have bichin' ol' lady.
ReplyDeleteShe helps keep the cheap shit away from me 'cause she knows I will not put up with shit people.
She likes me home with her, not visiting hours.
Ken, just did a 3600 mile walk-a-bout.
ReplyDeleteBrought a new shooter into the world in Texas [grandson] stopped in New Mexico and laid in the grass on a hill in wind like you wouldnt believe for three fuckin, hours glassing for dogs.
Got one shot off at a ranged 300 yds and missed. [too high and left]
Still had fun watching him bail.